My eating disorder

Blank paper…my mind is all clear like when I starve myself for a couple of days…That was my illusion, when I didn’t eat at all, now I realize that was wrong.

I’m not the right person to  teach people how to live their lives, first I must teach myself how to live mine.

I live day by day struggling because I can’t break the chains that  strangle  me. My goal isn’t to lose weight, my goal is to torture myself so I can reach Nirvana, like ascetics do. To cut off any earthly pleasure :)

Anyway my weight is always the same, I have 35 kilos and I’m 1.73 tall

I have anorexia with purging type.